First Off

amoral/ amorous

This is the best thing I've ever read:
Spousal Abuse in the Senate.

We elected a wife beater? Probably, but not this time.

Selah,
-Ian

ambivalent/ ambiguous

You don't even fucking want to know.

I am tired.

I'm bored, I'm mostly broke, I have a toothache, I haven't slept in 24 hours, I'm...

Yeah, I'm a bitch. I constantly whine and moan. So fucking sue me. I'm tired. So very tired. I'm tired of a lot. I'm tired of the fact that being a bastard works. I'm tired of Starcraft. I'm tired of comic book questions that should never be asked ("If Multiple Man had sex with one of his clones, would it be incest or masturbation?"). I'm tired of being sick and tired. I'm tired of being hungry, and fixing it by buying crap with no nutritive content. I'm tired of far too many things to bother listing here.

So I'm gonna smoke a cigarette, listen to the new Eminem record again, and maybe get some sleep.

Selah,
--Ian

ambivalent/ ambiguous

i look like death warmed over.

i don't feel much better either.

but between the white stripes and funny friends

the day is looking up.

Selah,
--Ian

pastiche/ past tense

Bleachmobile (Bleach in Japan) are three super-cute girls who play the meanest noisecore that side of the Pacific. Hell, this side even. I am one of the lucky bastards who got to see them live at SXSW, and boy... These girls FUCKING ROCK. Notice the caps and curse used for emphasis. The bass player is smaller than her instrument, yet plays better than... well, almost everyone I've ever seen play live. The tunes are noisy, but just catchy enough to keep you listening. Who cares if you don't speak the language? Can you understand a damn thing being said if say Refused is playing? Didn't think so. Just listen. Loud.

Selah,
--Ian

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imposed/ improved

I get so sick of being bored. And just when I think it's not going to end any time soon, I get a wake up call. I go out, believing that it's just moving to a different place to be bored.

that's when it hits me

It's one of those zen moments, where everything is in its place. I meet the right people, the people that I wouldn't actually be talking to if this weren't the right occasion, and everything gets that much better. I just go with it, knowing that it really could be worse. It could be terminal, and it really isn't. I can fool myself into thinking that all my diversions are purely momentary, but that is so untrue. I have so many diversions that it's just tough to decide which one to pursue. I'll never run out of things to occupy my time. That's why imortality is such a nice idea. I like the idea of being able to choose my diversions without fear of when it's going to end. Make it a lot easier to choose if I knew that I had all the time I could possibly need to accomplish everything I want to. I mean, if I could just sit back for a few years and read, I wouldn't even have trouble trying to figure out what to read next... Ah, such pleasant fantasies. Should bring sweet dreams...

Selah,
--Ian